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A doctor told me that the HCG diet is perfectly safe. Now, I am not one for extreme diet ideas, but do any of you know about this diet? It worries me that it deals with hormones.

I know you lose weight very quickly, which sends up a red flag to me. I need to get some weight off by my daughter’s wedding in May.

Any ideas on the HCG or other plans you recommend? I am apprehensive about the HCG diet for many reasons.

Holidays are over and no more filling my plate with sweets. I have taken ideas from several places and tailored them to my needs.

One thing I am finally tired of is “It’s a lifesytle change”. That really does not cut it and I think it is a mindset thing instead. Also, I have found it has to be personalized for each of us.

The food we eat is only part of it. And you won’t hear me go on much about emotions because my biggest reason for eating too much is that I love food. I know what foods are good for me, but a calorie is a calorie whether it is steel cut oats or good ole Quaker instant oatmeal. The scale does not care about organic versus processed foods.

I think after 55 years on this earth, it does not make a big difference in the details. It’s the food pyramid developed many years ago that works the best with of course limited calories. Gagging down as many bowls of cabbage soup as one can makes eating a chore. That would not last long for me. I might choose to eat less, but I sure as hell better like the food I eat.

I am making just a few changes at a time to my routine and my logic. I am not the only one who has mentioned this idea, but when I wander into the kitchen I ask myself if I am really hungry or am I giving in to my bad habits. Then, I decide what to do.

There is some debate about logging foods and I find myself eating more when I log because it makes me think too much about it. So, right now I am just adding in my head instead. And I do an hour of walking at the track every morning. Since I am retired, I try to find things to do to help other people, and that makes me happy and not food conscious.

A biggy of mine is that I get constipated and sorry if it’s TMI, but it does make a difference in weight loss. Flaxseed oil or Fish oil help me with this problem and I find that I feel better when I take them at meal time.

I noticed since I did gain so much weight in the last 5 months, that I am not fast on my feet when helping with the grandkids. I don’t like that one bit. There are so many things that losing weight would do to improve my life besides looks. Of course I would like to look nice in my jeans or be able to get them up without the pliers.

And one last thing that really helps me is to make sure there are 12 hours without food between supper and breakfast.

I will continue to blog as I find things that actually work and the scale supports it.

Well, I talked a good talk several months ago, but did I walk the walk? Hell, no!

It’s absolutely ridiculous that I have gained this much weight and it sure it a helluvalot harder to lose than to gain. Even the motivation, which people who know me realize this is not me.

I have got to read blogs and post blogs and quit skipping WW’s meetings and get this weight off and I don’t care if it takes 6 months. Consistency is my problem. Lifestyle Change is wornout, but hey it does work and I need one badly. Somebody help me get on track and any words of wisdom will do. My poor daughter weighs almost 300 pounds and what do I do to help? Get heavier and set a horrible example.

What kind of mother nags their daughter to lose weight and pays for her health club fee and my own, then does not do shit to change? Now, this is it. I am not going in the kitchen mindlessly grabbing food. This is what I do and this is my addiction, but I have whipped it only to have life changes, then fall off the wagon. Well, my late husband sure would not have approved of this. He stayed on his diet even in his wheelchair where he could not exercise.

Please just start from scratch and say some encouraging words. Carol

I start back to WW’s tomorrow after gaining 40 pounds and having bad asthma and many other life problems or crisises. When something like a bad illness or a death of a person close to you occurs, what you eat seems to be unimportant anymore and just making it through another day is all you can do. Some people need depression medicine, others like me just bitched and hollered at everyone who would listen. I was also being antagonized by a worthless car repair person. People went dumpster diving in my dumpter when I was selling the house. Stuff like that set me off into a screaming match.

Every day I was getting one or two forms of correspondence that pissed me off. The house sale went OK after the people who were interested drove me nuts until my realtor got them off my back. I would get 20 page hospital bills from my husbands stay before he died. I did not understand them and finally I do. The whole ordeal has been hell and not to mention it was 100 degrees every day of the summer.

Ok, but now I feel somewhat collected and I weigh 190 pounds, so I am ready to start my plan again. I was not going to try it when I was in the passive mood for so long. I am really ready to see my body get well from all the stress I put on it. And back to the exercising which I loved doing. Not sure I will love it as much, but won’t know until I try.

I just can’t let the weight keep going up to where I just cannot get it off, that is when you are a prisoner of your body. I don’t have a choice really if I want to be a healthy 54 year old. And no I won’t buy bigger pants, I went to Goodwill and got a couple pair of stretch pants until I fit into my thinner size. I find if you buy the bigger sizes, you will fit into them well and why even try to lose. So. I will make it until I can get those size 10s back on me.

Well, my journey begins tomorrow November 6th and I know I will get back to goal again. It will be more difficult this time due to medications and stress. But I will make it successful. Have a good Saturday night.

I was responding to a blog and I thought what I had to write was worthy of mention for me to create one.

There is this mindset now of “NO EXCUSES” for eating too much or binging. That reminds me of “ JUST SAY NO“ to drugs. Both simple enough …that is the problem. Even with the drugs, that phrase is not enough, there should have been at least a sentence about them leading to jail sentence or one’s death.

With the EXCUSES, I have decided to anticipate what can go wrong with my day to lead me to binging or not exercising. So, I created a list custom designed for my triggers.

Examples:

Taking a medicine which created hunger. Plan: keep counting calories and logging what I eat to face the truth. Eat smaller meals and water with each. Wait 15 minutes to decide if I am just giving myself a free pass.

Stressed to the max. Ok, those petite little carrots gave me the satisfaction of destressing because they take so long to chew, popcorn is another good choice.

Waited to long to eat, now I gotta get in the car and go without eating for too long. Put cereal bars in the car. I don’t like them enough to binge on them, but they can keep me from getting back home and raiding the cabinets.

Gained weight, may as well get out the big clothes now. NO. I bought 2 pr of bigger jeans at the Goodwill. I am not dignifying my weight loss with a wardrobe. Then, I will get back into my normal clothes faster.

Thinking about getting motivated again. NOPE. Draw up a plan and implement it. I have been thinking and I still gained 35 pounds in 2 months. So, it was stinking thinking.

Wondered if was going to have enough money. Grab snacks and start chowing down. Better idea: If you don’t have money, you sure don’t need to be buying more food you don’t need. And, it’s more to get depressed about to gain the weight.

I used to run straight to the kitchen and fill my plate on auto-pilot. Now, I plan and eat slowly, enjoying every morsel of it. And I only eat what I like because I don’t want to feel deprived. I like many nutritious foods and drinks.

Those neat places that have the dollar brownie bites. Reality check now: I print what I am going to eat from internet by restaurant and count the calories listed. That was a shock in one visit to this nice place that had Fried Green Beans. How could that be fattening…maybe a little like 400 calories. NO. 1400 calories were listed for one serving. I don’t like green beans enough to eat that many calories.

I go to my sister’s house for a child’s b-day party. People are eating all damn day. I used to call it a “Free Day”. There are no free days. I fix one plate, then I am done.

Sorry this is lengthy, but I felt it deemed necessary to have a back-up for excuses. Because we have them and saying “NO EXCUSES” is really kidding ourselves. We would not be on here if we did not have them. I accept it and plan on what to do when things get out of hand and my control so quickly.

I did not list PMS because I am post-menopausal. Everyone will have their own personal list because we all have different stressors and triggers.

This has helped me lose 4 pounds of the 35 so far. Have a great day!

I am now on the verge of obesity. I have officially gained 35 pounds since I got to goal last year. And I will tell you one thing “You do gain it much faster than you lose it”. And I don’t believe I have to EAT 3500 extra calories to gain one pound. But you do have to burn that many. At least that is with my current metabolism, so I will begin today starting over and pitch the excuse book I have been carrying.

And some of them were pretty sound excuses. I have been on Prednisone for Asthma, which weight gain is a major side effect, but I think knowing that fact, I just ate because I had an alibi. Sometimes it was the medicine and others I just ate to be eating something.

In any case, things at home are moving on. The house is almost sold, yet I would feel better to say that after inspection is passed. Got most of the estate financials straightened out and without a will, it really goes nuts. An example of one thing that went awry was I had a call from the cemetery on my caller ID. Apparently I used a charge card that was closed. But by the time I found out , it was rather embarrassing. Well, that got fixed, but there are still things which bother me, one is that the car is still in the shop for over 6 weeks, hoping to get it back Friday.

It just amazes me how fast I gained that weight back. I can’t even get pissed at the scale, hell, I apologized to it. Now, I can feel that I am moving slowly, out of breath with the weight and asthma, though the illness is getting better.

Putting the Dreadmill back down and doing 30 minutes today. Starting slow because I don’t want to get exhausted from it the first day. You folks know the exercise drill. And yes, I will return to WW’s if I do not lose at least one pound a week. Or I may join another support group live. I love this On-line one, but I need people in person conversing with me about things they do to lose weight. There are tricks to it , mostly emotional and mental. One thing I am doing first is waiting 15 minutes after I think I am hungry for a snack and see if it passes. And of course, I have to stay within
calorie guidelines to lose each pound. That’s just science.

I really hate documenting it, but it really is the only thing that works for me. So, back to the journal, and drinking the water.

I am now past the word “Trying”. My motto is now “Lose 35 pounds with mini-goals established”. It is time to create new goals and reinvent myself in life. I am open to ideas and I am taking this as “Starting Over”, without demeaning myself for having gained it.

Saw the kids and grandsons this weekend, which brought my spirits up greatly. They seemed to enjoy the apartment and the pool. We just had an overall great time together.

One last motivator I would like to mention is that I must get this weight off, or I will have to buy bigger sizes for Fall. Some of you know I gave my bigger sizes away and I do not want to buy new ones. I will get back in the smaller ones and wear them with pride.

I am having a helluva time writing a blog. I know I have gained 15 pounds since Dave died. And I am not blaming anybody but myself for gaining it. I need to weigh every day. Some people can do once a week, but I am not one of them. A week can go by and a 5 pound gain would not be unheard of if I did not weigh every day. I love food and the people who have been on BS a long time know I love it. Carbs, chocolate. icecream and just mostly any kind of a treat I eat and forget about it.

It was not like that a year ago. I got to my goal weight, jumped up and down and did a dance in front of WW’s friends and the hub wrote me a nice poem and I was pretty happy about that.

Then, you start thinking that you accomplished it and kinda eat a bit more of this and that and pretty soon . OH NO! I put on 15 pounds and it is summer and I wear shorts so no mind. Well, jeans time is around the corner so whether I am having a good day or a bad one, the calories/points need to be carefully watched.

Always a reason to eat, funerals, weddings, parties, you just got home from the store and can’t wait to try something. Or two somethings. Or you wait too long to eat and you are ravished so you overeat, me last night at the buffet.

Well, I grieve today and cry, tomorrow maybe I won’t . You just have to do the best you can. I gave him good care for 19 years so I feel like I did do my best. We had our joint secrets and we loved each other. The seizures he had while in the coma really haunt me sometimes, but in time I think I will be OK.

I’ve done a few stupid things that Dave would have noticed and not done, but he was smarter than me in many ways. And I guess I am learning things the hard way. Like putting out a dumpster in the driveway and not knowing people really dumpster dive in decent neighborhoods. Like letting people help you take care of the house and then they invite others over.

Then, I hire a nice girl to help with the food serving the night of the funeral. She turns out to be a coke head and takes the money I gave her and gets high and ends up in the Big House. Now, she calls and says she is clean and sorry I ruined the night of the funeral. Well, she really is not the person I thought she was.

I call a 1-800 number toll-free and talk to the insurance co. for 4 hours with some complex problems. I am happy that it did not take away from my cell minutes because I paid an extra 200 bucks last month. Wrong, my daughter tells me, the 4 hours did go against my minutes. So, I guess it’s Stupid week for me.

Oh and I forgot that I had a bit of a car accident again and nobody got hurt. I was crying when I went by the wheelchair store and tears covered my eyes and suddenly : CRASH. Car is still in the shop, but Dave got accident forgiveness on the policy. For being in such poor physical shape, he sure thought of everything. Even flood insurance and we don’t live near water. He was thinking if it rained long enough the street could flood. No arguments from me, I just pay the premium now and think he was doing the right thing. He had my ass covered from front to back on the bills and everything. He was such a loving grandfather to my 5 year old grandson too and they played Ipads together …so cute. Grandson really misses him too, but he is old enough to understand what happened and he accepts it. My kids, well that is a different story. They, like me have our days.

I am giving this weight loss another good college try even though I feel like shit. Love you guys. Carol

It has been a while since I wrote anything. Still need to lose about 10 pounds, the same ones that love me so much, they want to stay around.

Husband died July 5th, choked on toast and went into a coma for 2 days first. Caregiver was in the other room and did not hear him. We have a big house, so it was not in any way her fault. I have cried myself sick long enough for now and I think I can focus on life again so that is good news.

He was a very handsome outgoing man in his day, but over time got worse and worse. He never complained much and had a great zest for life. It’s been tough on the whole family, but I talked to him the night before and he was happy as he could be,so at least I now his final days were happy ones.

Now, I guess I will take it one day at a time, don’t plan on getting married again because they say 3 is a charm, so I will stick with that idea.

Grandson just began to sit up by himself at 6 months, so cool. Can’t wait to go up there and see him again.

I plan on getting back to eating normally soon and try to stay on some kind of a schedule as it works best for me that way.

So hard to exercise in the ridiculous heat of 100 degrees every day. Getting out to get groceries is a work out in this weather.

I think there is light at the end of the tunnel and my weight loss is still important plus exercising so I am trying to do better each day until I get back to my goal again. I know I can do it.

I have many excuses for gaining 10 pounds, none of them warrant the situation. I did move out of my house, now have no treadmill yet, but I do have a club membership. I don’t have to eat 24/7 and skip WW’s meetings, which is what I have done since we separated.
I have a nice guy in my life now who is very good to me and I care for him. He understands I need to watch my weight and he does not eat much. So, can’t use him for an excuse either.
I have got to set some new goals and break out of my new comfort zone as my daughter said to me this weekend. So, going to try new foods, read some alternative ideas about weight loss. I need a jump start, so first I will make out a grocery list with different foods on it. I used to like oatmeal so I am going to start eating it again for either breakfast or lunch. I don’t eat enough protein so I am going to look in my WW’s book to see what qualifies as protein.
I am not going to worry about how my life is going to turn out because I am doing the best I can and my husband is getting more care now that I left. So, that is very good for both of us.
I am asking for any ideas you guys or gals might have to help me get back to my goal and all ideas will be considered. Thank you. I have missed all of you.

This has become inexcusable for me. I have made my nocturnal eating habit into an obsession and causing myself to gasp for air from reflux as my husband has heard me. He is unable to wake me from the other room as his has his oxygen mask (BiPap machine) on. But I thank him for telling me that I am hollering with nightmares and struggling to breathe so loudly that it’s heard throughout the house.
I have been eating bowls of cereal in the wee hours in bed. I have gotten up at least 3 times a night now to eat. I return to WW’s and I am weighing in EVERY week from now on. I must discuss this daily with my daughter so I hold myself accountable for my destructive eating habits.
My best friend gave me the 12 step program book and I apply it to my problem, because it works about the same way. An addiction is something you don’t take lightly and being in denial has not worked. Reading from this book has helped in the past. I wrote a list of ways to eliminate it from my life. I successfully quit nocturnal eating once for over a month. So, it can be done and I know this. Realizing the impact it causes with weight is one thing, but breathing is much more of a concern to me. I refuse to die of an asthma attack caused by eating snacks. It’s so ridiculous, I am ashamed to write about it. Mother did it too her whole life, but at some point, you take responsibility for your own actions and quit excusing yourself due to life’s challenges. Well, there won’t be any challenges if I don’t stop this NOW.
So, I no longer say to myself “it’s only a small snack”. Or, I really need this, I had stress”. I am hungry, so I will quit doing this tomorrow. None of these lies or excuses is going to help me breathe at night.
Lord, Mom, Kristy, Buddyslimmers, and all other people I care about, I STOP THIS NOCTURNAL EATING TODAY MAY 9th, 2011. I will try to post something on here every day about this and my progress. I realize it will bore some people, but please allow me to help myself. Love all of you.